...well, as of Saturday morning, I go to the beach.
I was up at 3am and wondered what to do with my time. Lately, I can't sleep and I feel on the verge of a nervous breakdown. Thanks, pregnancy. Passing the time online just seemed like a waste and quite boring. I decided after a little while to get dressed and walk the boardwalk for as much as I could. I made it about 1/4 mile before needing to sit down. Back pain is taking over.
Surprisingly, the boardwalk was busier than I thought it would at that wee hour of the morning.
I drove the whole length first to make sure there weren't any crazies lurking around. Turned out to just be some couples out for a walk, runners, quite a few fishermen, a photographer, club goers wandering back home and some kids I wanted to ask why they weren't at home in bed (think 12 and under!).
I didn't go equipped with any camera gear, just my iPod. I waited around for two hours to catch the sunrise after my short walk. I did use a Dunkin' Donuts restroom and found out that they don't have cash to give change before 6am. A nice guy offered to put my juice on his tab and give him my cash, but I passed. I was really just being a "customer" so I could use their potty. And... they didn't have any donuts made, what's up with that?!
My usual sitting spot hid the sunrise. It wasn't directly out over the water, but a little to the north.
I walked over to the inlet jetty and waited for the fireball to arise.
At first, I thought it would just be covered in clouds, but then magically this beautiful orange ball arose and kept rising. By 6am, it was like nothing occurred, a bright full sun, and another day began. I sat on the boardwalk a bit, thinking of how packed it would be in a matter of hours and how so many missed such a beautiful moment.
There's something about nature, the ocean, the sand, and the calm quiet that makes me feel like everything will be okay. From my short walk, I decided I need to get back to exercise even if it doesn't feel great or takes way too long to accomplish (or wipes me out!). I've been seeing a chiropractor for a week now which has relieved a good deal of lower back pain (way worse than the first!), but I've realized the less I move, the worse it's going to get.
It's time to keep moving forward. Inch by inch... if not for my body, but for my sanity.
I've only ever watched the sunrise over the ocean less than a handful of times (sunsets, I've seen plenty). The last time quite possibly was in college. I've seen it from my windows wherever we've lived, but to see it rise on the edge of the earth at 5:29am... magical.
Next time, I'll try to plan better and bring a better camera, but this time, I just wanted to "be" there.
- kate -