Thankful | It’s Not Always Easy

It’s not always easy to find what I am thankful for each week. Yes, that sounds like a ‘white whine’ – which is sooo not who I want to be.

Lately, I’ve had a lot of days where I have to find clothes to fit my body and nothing looks right. My inner critic jumps out in full force screaming and yelling about how fat, ugly or lazy I am. I’ve lost sight of the bigger picture too many times to count.

Deep down, I wonder, often, if I’ll ever get to my goals or if this tired body will be my burden forever. The intelligent side of me knows I’ll reach my goals and it’ll just take a year. As everyone says, “you didn’t gain all that weight overnight,” blah blah blah.

So, today I remind myself that I did once have the courage to share the most hideous images hard work I’ve been doing. Plus, I’m very thankful have found this blog to look at several times a day when I feel like it’s never going to get better.

I’m getting better at fighting back against the inner critic, but it’s going to take serious hard work to make such a transformation.

And… I am thankful I am finally making time to get healthier, instead of spending every waking (and sleeping) hour worried about how healthy Miles is.

He’ll be fine, unless he sticks his hand in here for a toy.