I recently started reading Atomic Habits by James Clear. He writes of concrete methods for changing your habits and reshaping your life in a manner to support your goals and who you want to be or what you want to achieve. From work to personal choices, to changes in health and fitness lifestyles, this book appears to be useful and many say it’s even been life-changing.
As a lifelong learner and someone who is pretty self-aware and very self-reflective, I didn’t find the book to be life-changing so much as opening my mind up to new strategies to support my current goals and habits I’d like to instill in my life. Removing bad habits, sure! Adding in new habits via cues and rewards, sign me up!
Some of the anecdotes James Clear uses in the book sounded very familiar to me. I’ve come across them in other reading through Habits of Highly Effective People, Deep Work and Digital Minimalism by Cal Newport, and other books he cites throughout the literature. At first, I had thought I read the book before, as certain pathways and stories were so familiar. Though, after continuing on, I found in my notes that I had not listed it as read before, and some areas of the book differed from my previous knowledge.
Why am I sharing all of this?
I’d like to believe and create the habit I once had solidified for some time as a writer. At one point, I wrote daily for my blog for about 3 years straight. Beyond that time, I’ve gone on to have many other hobbies, interests, learning experiences, and have even tried to keep a fledgling podcast going through my work.
What I always come back to and miss on a regular basis is that I identify myself in this way:
I am a writer.
Amongst the many other areas I’d like to focus on, I would like to re-identify as a regular writer. I enjoy typing, I enjoy sharing my experiences and light-hearted opinions, and most of all sharing all that I learn in order to enlighten someone else to some new idea, concept, habit, or spark of joy. I never stop learning, but for some time here I’ve stopped writing and sharing my learning.
There are a few reasons for my lack of writing.
One has been the lack of time I’ve made for writing. It used to be a forefront item in my mind to accomplish, but as I’ve headed down certain pathways it took quite the back seat. With podcasting, it’s a lot of work to write a podcast, record it, and edit it. It’s a ton of work to interview others whom many I’ve never spoken with prior, as a natural introvert my nerves get the best of me when it comes time to keep going. I don’t absolutely love podcasting, as I feel it’s an act of replicating what I’ve already written. I enjoy writing the piece, but to record, edit, and share sometimes feels like unneeded work for the reward of it.
Another reason is that I am nervous to just focus in on the things I am exploring in life. For instance, I started Crossfit back in May, and while I’ve had some serious moments of self-doubt (and still do), I’ve been hesitant to explore that topic for that it seems to invoke cheers or jeers depending on where you stand on the issue. For myself included, I was not a huge fan of Crossfit before trying it out, but have come to love many things about it, while also sometimes searching for alternatives as well. I’d like to share more of this journey, but I worry it’ll be seen as drinking the cool-aid or waffling in my desires between Crossfit, Running, general health, and even just enjoying going for a walk!
Lastly, some use this blog as a tool to judge or hold against me. I don’t care much about those people as I used to, but it has been nice to share my story on Instagram in a private manner amongst those who all fully support me. When out in the open, not everyone will be supportive, and some will even criticize. Often it’s nice to just hideaway in a small environment with like-minded and supportive people to the cheers of Crossfit success!
Along the way with writing, I’ve gone in bursts where I write quite often, then hideaway for a while. I tend to feel like being vulnerable here can be detrimental, yet sometimes I crave this openness and space at the same time. I do miss writing, but after all, maybe to start the habit of writing in a journal on paper might be more effective overall (yet damaging to my Adsense income 🙂 to exert my learnings to later explore in a more public forum.
How do you find enjoyment in writing for your blog? Is your blog hyper-focused on a certain subject area?
I’ve shifted overtime for anyone who’s read 10+ years of writing from writing about running, to food, to life, to children, to solid photography only, to cooking, back to running, off to the frugal financial pathways, and circling back around. It’s true, you’ll never know what you’ll get when you stop by!
I hope to ingrain the habit of writing more and sharing all of these books I’m reading. Thus far, in the last three months, I’ve completed about 10+ books varying from food to self-growth to fitness or biographies.
Thanks for checking in!